Accepting a new reality |

Accepting a new reality

Jill Baron
Eagle, CO Colorado

An excerpt from an e-mail sent by my daughter, Laura Hughes, after being laid off ” such resilience!

“This economic crisis has reared its ugly face in our home. Unfortunately, I was part of a layoff about a week and a half ago.

“This is obviously happening to thousands of people nationwide. I feel empathy toward each of them. I wanted to write this not for pity or as a cry for help. I simply wanted to bring home the importance of this economic situation. Maybe each of us can make a pledge to do something to help a neighbor or donate some service to pull our great America out of this black hole.

“Design is my livelihood, and it means everything to me. This was not just a job but also a career. I worked hard for this career. Landing it only a week after graduating college was amazing, challenging and empowering!

“According to the experts, I am suffering from a ‘catastrophic personal loss.’ They make it sound so … catastrophic, like an act of God or Mother Nature in all her fury. Personally, it feels more like a death of a loved one. I did love my job. So maybe that is a valid feeling.

“I can tell you, oddly enough, I am going through the stages of grief. The first stage was absolutely denial. I was sitting in the president’s office thinking, ‘This is not real; this is not happening; it has to be a dream.’ I packed up my desk and said teary goodbyes to all my friends and colleagues.

“There was a middle stage ” hysteria. I was embarrassingly hysterical. Wailing, as I never have before, thinking to myself that this was the end of the world.

“Stage two is anger. I absolutely felt angry. I was angry with my boss and angry with myself.

“Moving past that was the short but present bargaining stage. I think I did more bargaining with myself than anyone else in a weird way that I cannot really explain.

“The even shorter stage of depression hit me next. I felt lost, useless. I thought of all our life goals ” a home, a family, financial stability ” they were now lost! This was devastating to me … personally, financially and emotionally. Let me stop to say, ‘God bless my husband for being my rock!’ He is so supportive and positive.

“Now, I think I am moving into acceptance. I do not have a job. I do not have health insurance, a retirement plan or kick— stock options. That is my reality. I will find a new job in the career I love so much. I will move on, and I will learn something from this.

“God may be testing me, but I will thrive. I may not have a job ” yet ” but I have family, friends, my health and an education. I am on a true journey to find my strengths, my weaknesses, myself … oh yeah, and a job! Wish me luck, everyone!”

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