Poetry book exposes pain of loss and shows healing
The first poem in Jodie Wiedl’s “Unfading Love: Poems of Grief and Hope” portrays the deep love she felt for her husband on Feb. 9, 2001, when they married. A page or so later, readers feel her heart-wrenching pain as she writes her way through the grief of losing him through suicide, in October 2006.
“Although I miss him on a daily basis, I have found peace through the therapy of writing and reading my own poems,” Wiedl said. “I am hopeful that these words will help heal others through their individual experience of pain, loss and suffering. Nothing would give me greater pleasure than to walk this lonely journey with them and encourage others to seek their own truth, rising above adversity.”
In this effort, Wiedl will speak at Border’s in Dillon Saturday.
Wiedl believes her book is not just for people who have suffered the loss of a loved one from suicide, but also for people who have lost parents, children or a marriage through divorce.
“I have been told by many who have read my book that they can relate it to their own individual experiences,” she said.
In her first poem of grief, she wonders if the sun will ever rise again. Days later she understands the intolerable pain her husband felt and why he left. Weeks later, she feels: “A twinkling star you shine on me; Your love dances in my heart … I get your messages of hope.” Still, she expresses her denial, depression and healing.
Her words touch readers with deep pain, compassion and hope of divine healing: “It’s the warmth of the sun and the peace of the night; it’s the song of the bird and the breeze on the light,” even though she “watched (him) fall like a teardrop from (her) eye, unable to help …”
She reminds readers that perhaps the reason humans try so hard to stay alive is because “our souls (are) trying to tell us there is more to life than this moment.”
Of course, her healing journey is not linear, but after 20 months, she feels the pain lifting. Two years later, she chooses to release her grief, realizing it can’t bring her husband back to life. Still, she alternates between pain and hope. Her last poem, written May 8, 2010 explains:
“Like the cycles of the moon
My heart waxes and wanes
Through cycles of grief
With each year that passes
The piercing pain softens
And my inner peace grows.”