Vail relationship column: Making peace with your inner critic
Editor’s note: Neil Rosenthal is on vacation. This is one of his previously published columns.
Dear Neil: I am interested in your thoughts on how to feel compassion for myself. I am extremely hard on myself, and I regularly think of how I could have said or done something better — after the fact. I would like to know how to be kind and compassionate to myself and put my inner critic aside.
Controlled By My Inner Critic in New Zealand
Dear Controlled: Try this exercise: Write down exactly what your inner critic says to you. Write down all the judgments and criticisms that your inner critic has about you.
Then get in a comfortable position, close your eyes and take several long, slow deep breaths. Allow yourself to return, in your imagination, to the scene where you said or did something that you are regretful or critical of yourself for. Where were you? What time of day was it? What were you wearing? Who else was around? What were you thinking and feeling?
Now, holding on to that image, ask yourself: “What was I trying to do? What was my motive? What fear was I trying to lessen? What desire or feeling was I trying to express? What was I trying to avoid? What fear was I influenced by?” Review the entire emotional context of the event. You will likely come to realize that you were trying to meet your needs or avoid pain in the only way you could think of at that time.
When viewed in the context of the larger story, even though you might have handled the situation better, why are you allowing this to mean that you are somehow inferior or unworthy?
Nathaniel Branden addresses this question in the “Six Pillars of Self Esteem” by saying: “I can condemn some action I have taken and still have compassionate interest in the motives that prompted it. I can still be a friend to myself. This has nothing to do with alibiing, rationalizing or avoiding responsibility. After I take responsibility for what I have done, I can go deeper — into the context.”
You might also try answering the following questions to help you look at your positive and healthy traits, rather than just your negative ones. What do like about yourself? What are your strengths as person? A friend? A lover? A spouse? A parent? A family member? At work? At home? Socially? How might you be friendlier and more forgiving of yourself?
Neil Rosenthal is a licensed marriage and family therapist in Westminster and Boulder. His column is in its 23rd year of publication and is syndicated around the world. You can reach him at 303-758-8777, or email him through his website at http://www.heartrelationships.com. He is the author of the new book “Love, Sex and Staying Warm: Keeping the Flame Alive.”
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